Again, another bored night, I come to this site with much negativity
Last few months have been not easy… I gave up a one-year contract work, and then started an IB internship in July. The life in IB was tiring. Money is the only thing drives people work late night. I love the feeling of wealth. I want to pay my rent. But… the decision was yet wrong again, at least at this point of time. It is so clear that I cannot get a return offer, in that shitty, non-revenue office. They will never increase costs with no profit expectation. I don’t want to argue that if I were good enough they might look into hiring. But, c’mon, I was new and fresh and knew nothing. I learned fast but it just does not work out. I hate this bank. They recruit interns only to deliver dinner and not pay. It is so funny.
Anyway, all these feelings, negative. Maybe I should resort to religion to seek inner peace or something just to make myself feel better when things are bad. The world is never fair and will never be fair but at the same time it tells you that it is fair, but at somewhere. But you can never get to that somewhere, and then it is your problem.
I should not give up whatever. Maybe I just don’t want to again waste parents’ hard-earned money. But, this decision is really bad. I hate those people.